It’s no secret that I have been MIA for longest of time. Evident, of course, by the duration between the last post, and this one.
You know how they say life got in the way? Well life got in the way. It’s been almost 3 years, and these have been the most eventful 3 years of my life, and the most life changing as well.
I moved provinces, endured more than I ever thought I could, learned more about myself than ever before. It has been a journey.
I have carried the ring to Mordor, and there was no Sam to help me.
It’s incredible how the life one is exposed to, shapes you as an individual and as a person. Your personality, helps you deal with those experiences; but it’s those experiences that shape you as a person.
From spending the nights on call stretched out in a station wagon, hiding from bedbug infested hospital beds, to welcoming a newborn into the world with the call to prayer.
Highs and lows, ups and downs, right and wrongs. A journey of a thousand sunrises, a thousand sunsets (3 years- actually more than 1000!) all has led me to this point, this locus in the journey, exactly where I am supposed to be.
As tough, as upsetting, as tearful as it’s been, I cannot, for even an ounce of me, be anything else but grateful.
The road ahead is long, but the road travelled was magnificently intricately intertwined with smooth curves, sharp bends, steep cliffs, and upward climbs. The path was smooth tarmac, highways even at times, but also ended suddenly, rocky gravel, inches forward at a time. It’s easy to become dissuaded, to falter, to just want to give up, to want to wither away under the warm duvets. Waking up, expected to show up, to do the best you can, to not be appreciated for that, is hard. To still be told you’re doing a mediocre job, to be just getting by, even though it feels as if you’re give 110 percent, breaks you. To do all you can, and still not have the expected outcome- its hard man.
But the true make of a man, is when he keeps going. Keeps pushing though. Strive for excellence, but don’t let it trap you, stop you from growing, from moving forward.
The good day, be grateful for them. The bad days? Be even more grateful for those.
It’s those days that decides your character, those days that allow you to grow. And at the end of it, know that those days will pass, all days will pass. A thousand sunrises, a thousand sunsets.
Where will you be in 3 years? will past you be proud? How do you make yourself proud? Not an easy question, but an important one, because at the end of the day, you’re living your life. no one else. Not your consultant, not your cat, not your best friend. You are doing this for you. Be it you in 1 months’ time, you in 1 years’ time, or you in the 1 lifetime, time. We must prepare, and do the best we can. Excel, and strive for excellence. It is the human experience, the essence of being. Not just to live, to let the days pass you by, to let the days just linger and fade, like smoke in the wind. Rather, it must be an artwork. An intricate painting, with lines and curves, with colours and textures. And at the end of the day, you must be able to put your stamp, your seal right there and then, and be proud of it.
Because future you is watching.
And future you wants to be proud.
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